M is for Missed and Missing

It’s been 2 weeks now since M and I last saw each other. He got back from Bicol over a week ago, and got sick, then got very busy and his little sister got hospitalized. He has two jobs so I understand he can barely squeeze in a good long nap. He called me twice since he got back but I wasn’t around on both occasions. The cosmos are keeping us away from each other. I know for a fact that he’s not the type who would send text messages constantly, a couple of messages in a day is already surprising.

It’s killing me. I would totally forget about his absence if not for the fact that I miss having him around. Even my sister asked me why he hasn’t been visiting lately!

I have been trying to meet up with him but I never had any luck. I’m not even sure anymore if I still want to have “The Talk” with him because honestly, I’m not sure if I still care. Sure I miss him but I don’t think I can put up with the absence if ever we do decide to move on further and be together.

Am I making any sense? I just need to know.

*Confusion*