Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Fall. Fail. Rinse. Repeat.

It's always the wrong person or the wrong time. This is the story of my life.

In today's episode, I get heartbroken. Surprise.

It's only been a week since we reunited. The last time we saw each other was over a year go. I've thoroughly enjoyed our chats over YM. Now, I cannot stop thinking about this schmuck who consistently talks about himself. Every time I log in, I now expect him to pop up. And he always does.

But he's fresh out of a relationship. God knows how much I despise it each time he talks about missing his ex and about everything he had planned for them. Don't get me wrong. I am glad I was there during the rough times and he did apologize for making me the shock absorber. But I just cannot comprehend how he has fallen so deeply in love with someone who, based on his stories, seemingly doesn't give a flying fuck about their relationship. It's unfair.

I've been thinking about it. I'm ready to give up my online hook-up accounts for this guy. I think I can give up my double life for him. But it's not like it matters now. It's a lose-lose situation really. He will either retain me in the friend zone or make me the rebound guy.

I really don't know what to do anymore. Maybe I'll avoid him tonight. Maybe I won't.



  1. The perils of love and heartbreak. I can relate.


  2. Think about it thrice before making a decision of avoidng him or not. You never know, right? =)

  3. Fickle Cattle- Yeah. Most of us have been there. It's pretty sucky. Thanks for dropping by.

    Vitori Vita- Yes. I've been thinking about it. Not such a good idea. Thanks.